I’m on blog #3 and I’m hoping that this time I can remain consistent with it. I want to thank my friend, Jade, who inspired me to get back into the game. She asked me to be a guest blogger on her blog, Fifth Time a Charm, and it reignited the desire for me to write for love’s sake again (writing for school was part of the reason for the love breakdown).
I hope this is helpful for me…for you…for whomever.
I’m a little rusty at this blogging thing. My last blog post on my last active blog was in February 2010 and to be honest, life looked different for me then. That blog was called The Beautiful Facade, an ode to how much time I had spent trying to be someone I wasn’t and to show the ways in which the Lord was allowing me to slowly release my need to masquerade and front for the people. It was therapeutic and refreshing…and I long for that feeling again.
I opted not to continue on The Beautiful Facade because I’m at a different place in my life. There are masks that are yet to be broken but I wanted to stop reverencing the masks – the superficial me. It’s time to be OK with who I am – whatever that means. This blog is called The Girl with the Black Pearls because it represents one of the strongest and earliest compliments I remember anyone ever saying to me. Now to be fair, I have received many compliments in my life but for some reason, the negative things that people say tend to “stick and stay” more than the compliments. I’m trying to change that. I’m changing that. I have changed that. My paternal grandmother, my Gramps, passed away when I was five but before that time, she used to say that my eyes looked like little black pearls. She spoke to the beauty she saw and the worth she saw early. That is honestly something I am still trying to embrace. That is something I am embracing. That is something I embrace.
And so should you. We have all learned how to have our lives look a certain way and have our lives sound a certain way. We have all been comfortable in the beautiful yet deadly facade. We all have been guilty of allowing the negative to stick and stay while inadvertently taking advantage of the positive. But the good thing is that we all have the opportunity to change that. And that’s what this journey will be about. I can’t promise deep and moving all the time and you shouldn’t expect that. But i can promise how life is seen through these black pearls and what God chooses to reveal that these black pearls couldn’t even see. And in that, i’ll be content to see the beauty and the worth.
“What do people really get for all their hard work? I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can.” Ecclesiastes 3:9-12 (NLT)”
P.S. – If you want to see what life was like during the Beautiful Facade, here you go.